I don't think that people ever understand what I feel.

The pressure, stress that is overwhelming me right now.

I feel empty.

I don't want to do anything.

Yet, I am scared, full of worries and anxiety.

I am not doing good enough!

I still have so many things to prepare!

Yet, I can't do all of those things because of these evil feeling..

And I hate myself back now.

I cry again tonight.

I have nobody that understands me well. 

Don't tell me that I never try. I did try to ask for help.

But nothing ever changes.

I feel like a hypocrite. 

I give people positive messages but look at me.

What had I done to my life...

I am sorry because I am not able to feel the 'enjoyment' that you asked me to.

Not now. I'm sorry.