Like always, I'm sorry for not updating any entry. I just want to remind you guys that I'm living in a boarding school. So, do you get what I mean? 

Today I just want to remind you guys to APPRECIATE THEM. Who's them that I'm referring to?? They are the closest person to you. They know you better than anyone else. They love you more than anyone else. They would sacrifice everything that they have for you, even their lives. They are the happiest person when you were born in this cruel world. 

If you think THEM is your parents, then YES. You're correct.

Why suddenly I want to ask you guys to appreciate them. I mean like, it's not my problem right? But truthly, IT IS my problem. Why I said that? Have you ever heard  a hadis about amar ma'ruf nahi munkar? 

عَنْ أَبِي سَعِيْد الْخُدْرِي رَضِيَ اللهُ عَنْهُ قَالَ : سَمِعْتُ رَسُوْلَ اللهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم يَقُوْلُ : مَنْ رَأَى مِنْكُمْ مُنْكَراً فَلْيُغَيِّرْهُ بِيَدِهِ، فَإِنْ لَمْ يَسْتَطِعْ فَبِلِسَانِهِ، فَإِنْ لَمْ يَسْتَطِعْ فَبِقَلْبِهِ وَذَلِكَ أَضْعَفُ اْلإِيْمَانِ
 " whoever among you see wrongdoing, let him rectify it with his hand. If he's unable, then with his tongue. And if he is incapable of that then with his heart and that is the weakest level of faith"

[ riwahul muslim ]

Blog is the only way I can spread goodness and reminders for all of us. I'm not ustazah. I'm just an ordinary 16 y'old teenager! I don't have much knowledge about Islam, but I want to share anything that I know that will help the ummah. WE ARE THE UMMAH. Prophet Muhammad S.A.W ummah. I know that maybe some of you readers would think why I want to spread goodness and reminders? I'm still young. Enjoy your life girl! 

Do you want to know something creepy? Do you want to know the reality of this life? 

كُلُّ نَفۡسٍ۬ ذَآٮِٕقَةُ ٱلۡمَوۡتِ‌ۖ
" Every soul shall have a taste of death " 

[Quran 3 : 185 ]

It's true I'm still young. But death doesn't mean only for the elders. I know you aware of that. Okay, everyone would death. No matter what age it is. But why I want to spread goodness and reminders?

وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنْسَ إِلَّا لِيَعْبُدُونِ
" And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me "

[ Adz zariyat : 56 ]

وَإِذْ قَالَ رَبُّكَ لِلْمَلَائِكَةِ إِنِّي جَاعِلٌ فِي الْأَرْضِ خَلِيفَةً ۖ قَالُوا أَتَجْعَلُ فِيهَا مَنْ يُفْسِدُ فِيهَا وَيَسْفِكُ الدِّمَاءَ وَنَحْنُ نُسَبِّحُ بِحَمْدِكَ وَنُقَدِّسُ لَكَ ۖ قَالَ إِنِّي أَعْلَمُ مَا لَا تَعْلَمُونَ
"And [mention, O Muhammad], when your Lord said to the angels, "Indeed, I will make upon the earth a successive authority." They said, "Will You place upon it one who causes corruption therein and sheds blood, while we declare Your praise and sanctify You?" Allah said, "Indeed, I know that which you do not know." "

[ Al baqarah : 30 ]

We are created in this world only for 2 reason. To worship Allah and be a khalifah that will make a peaceful world. Spread goodness, remind others about good and bad things, help people to a straight path.. That's what we have to do. It not just me who need to spread those things, but it's every single human in this world who need to do it! Da'wah is compulsory  for all of us. 

Alright back to the topic. I want to talk about appreciate your parents because my friend just lose her mom last Saturday. Look, I can't imagine my life without a mom, a dad. Sometimes when I'm at the hostel I would think about my parents. What are they doing right know? Are they alright? Do Allah still gives me a chance to meet my parents when I come back home? 

Every single day, I want to call my parents to ask about their health. To hear their voices. But I can't do it. I don't have cents to make a call. I have to limit my calls and use it only when there's emergency. 

Can you imagine your live without your mother? Your mother that battle with her own life just want to born you? Don't you feel bad when you do bad things to your mom? When you heart her small heart? When you shut your door because she didn't gives you permission to hang out with your friends? When you lie to your mother that you have a tuition class at school but the  truth is you go to a cyber cafe? DON'T YOU FEEL BAD?? She's nearly DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU.

How about father? Without him, you won't exist. He willingly do everything just to grant your wishes. Even if he's so tired, but he still would do his best as a father just to make sure you have a happy life. He didn't show his love, but HE LOVES YOU really much. 

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Appreciate them. You would miss and regret when they are no longer in this world. Again, appreciate them before it's too late.  
This entry is special for me and all of you ma readers. May Allah grant us ni'mat IMAN and ISLAM till the end of our life. Aamiin. 



I always thought that I'm not beautiful enough. I'm fat. My body covered with a thick ugly fat! Not just that, it wiggles liked jello! *jelly My eyes only can see the ugly of it. Nothing is beautiful if you have big flabby arm, big legs, back that looks like a caterpillar, double chin, bloated belly like a balloon that will explode anytime! I know you're with me.*smirk

Do you have friends that eat more than you but they're not getting fat? I have and I'm really jealous! Why they can eat anything they want, but they're not getting fat?! While me? I'm still stuck in this fat body even tho I already cut my calorie intakes. I had exercise tons of times, but I can't see any different!  Why it's so unfair? Why can't everyone have an ideal body? SKINNY. 

I had thought about this many times, and I think I know the answers. 



It doesn't matter! Despite how fat you're, how skinny you're, you're still a HUMAN. Nothing can change that. It's human that make us think that way. 'auww... I'm not pretty liked her. People won't likes me. I'd ended up not getting married and dead as an ugly person. No one will care about me. EVERYONE HATES MEEEE!!' *you're crying

What's the real matter is your heart. 💝 If you have a good heart, a good attitude, no matter what size you're, people will love you just the way you're. Being fat is not a bad thing. Fat people, skinny people. It's an art! You don't have to be the same like others. Being different is not a bad thing. And one more thing, not everyone like skinny people. It's true that most of people like skinny people. But, there are some of them that like curvy people. Don't you want to be one of them? That SPECIAL to 'some of them'? 

It's true! I have a friend that like curvy people * I mean not skinny. I don't want to say fat. It makes me look bad* because he likes the cuteness of her cheeks. Does skinny people have that 'cute, soft, squishy cheeks' liked people that not skinny? I don't think so!

I'm saying this not to make you stop losing weight. Lose weight is good. Really good and I recommend you to do it because you would be healthier. It's the same for those who want to gain weight because you're underweight. Changes are not bad. Try to be healthier is great! It just you don't have to judge your body. It's YOU. Accept the fact. It's you but you'll change YOU to a BETTER YOU! *get it?

remember, your goal is to be healthy. Not lose weight only. You're losing weight but you're sick. Is it a life? *example: anorexic. sorry to say. Eat clean, workout. Be patient if you're not seeing any progress during your journey. It takes time. Good thing always take time. It's not going to be easy. It's hard. But we're tougher! We need dedications and believe in ourselves! Be strong! Never give up! 

Dedicated to myself and all of us..  

Before I end my entry, I would like to tell you guys that this 6th February I'll face a new world. A much better world that might change me into a better muslimah than I'm now. I hope it would be a reality. I always dream to be a great muslimah that can help the ummah. 'SICK UMMAH'. I hope this new life will change me so that I can help people. However, I'm scared to face a new thing. Pray for me please *watery eyes  

again, sorry for my bad English. [ I  think I will said this in every entry. HAHA.]

Oh! the title is inspiration;motivation because I don't know the difference between both of it. HAHA.. however, it can be an inspiration for some people and motivation for other some. *bende aku merepek ni? K, bye. tak nak merepek dahh HAHAHA